woke up to an unbelievably vicious avalanche of awful, hateful comments on this pic, simply because i mentioned spending a night in playing the video game ‘skyrim’. it would appear that many people, both men and women, feel i’m too much of a fake ugly makeup-covered slut etc etc to enjoy gaming. it’s very weird to me that the gaming community is so mean and judgmental and exclusive of people, considering i became involved in gaming cos i was an outcast at school and was bullied a lot and video games were my escape, and i imagine many gamers are in that exact same boat. surely as a collective group we should’ve learned acceptance, and how much it sucks to be picked on for being different? yet as a whole, the gaming community is one of the most cruel and judgmental there is.
i do sometimes think that cos i am seen as a ‘model’, maybe the hate comes from the fact that many gamers see girls like me as an embodiment of the mean popular girl who bullied them in high school, and see us as trying to get involved in ‘their’ thing that those girls used to bully them about?
anyway, long story short my facebook page is once again becoming a huge emotional burden so it’s time for another break where i completely back off from being interactive on there and simply use it for promo posts. now that i’m broadcasting to such a huge audience, the endless stream of hate weighs too heavily on my mind when i make an effort to take part in conversations or share parts of my life on there.