So as a guy who thinks you are very attractive,(obviously) and understands why it's hard for you to find a real good guy,(not gay, nor do I have an issue with anyone who is) have you fell in love before and would you again? I have and was crushed but scared to again.

Honestly I’m not really sure if I have been in love before. I guess I have to some degree, but I don’t know. I’ve had two long term boyfriends in the past but I guess deep down I always knew that it wasn’t a ‘forever’ thing and both relationships were ended by me due to boredom. That being said, the last two times I let myself have some kind of ‘love’ type feelings for guys I got very badly hurt, so there’s definitely a wall up there now. I think I like the idea of falling in love, but I am VERY guarded.