Things are socially easier for me elsewhere, but that’s primarily because of this whole Ashlee Adams thing I created. I haven’t had a night out drinking in Adelaide for as long as I can remember where I wasn’t approached by multiple people because of ‘Ashlee’, or overheard people saying “That’s that Ashlee Adams chick” while pointing at me, etc. It’s flattering and stuff but it does make me feel a bit paranoid like I have to watch what I’m doing and I can’t really be myself.
However, the part of Adelaide that is particularly toxic for me is more so the mentality that is rampant here, the old “if you don’t have a house and a stable career and a family you’re a life failure” mindset that gets around. Seriously, if I’m in Adelaide for a few months without getting out and clearing my head I pretty much become a severely depressed recluse and my brain is like YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND AND YOU FAIL AT LIFE AND YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING THAT MATTERS BECAUSE YOU ARE SINGLE YOU FUCKING FAILURE YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS A JOKE. I legit go fucking crazy here and then as soon as I get out I realise it doesn’t actually matter because I am happy with my unconventional choices. This place is fucking baaaad for me, man.