I’d say it’s more the latter. I can’t regret what I’ve done, I’ve achieved the highest point I possibly could in my chosen field and I wouldn’t be where I am now or have been able to do all the awesome things I’ve done if it wasn’t for all that stuff. However, I do fear that my choices have condemned me to being forever seen by others as someone with no real value beyond my body/sexuality. I guess it’s stupid, because it’s not something I can reverse or change and even if I could I doubt I would so I don’t know why it’s plaguing me so much lately. I think Adelaide is just very toxic for my mind and being here does not do me any favours. The sooner I can get this immigration stuff sorted out and get to LA for the long-term, the better.
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