I’ve been single for a very long time with no serious interest shown in years by any guys whatsoever (beyond them all wanting to bang me which doesn’t count) and although it doesn’t really make sense for me to have a boyfriend right now nor am I desperately seeking one out or anything, lately I have been feeling like someday soon it might be nice to find someone. There is part of me that really desires that security, and knowing someone cares about me, and being able to text a guy I like without having an anxiety-fueled inner meltdown about whether he actually wants to hear from me and am I annoying him and having to overanalyse every single thing to the point I start behaving like a completely insane, unstable human being. And quite simply, being naked on the internet just isn’t gonna help my cause, for as long as I have the idea drummed into my head that nobody will ever love me or take me seriously because my boobs are on the internet, I will always have this wall up and continue to self-sabotage any time I feel anyone getting close to me. I guess I just want some kind of normality, and even though topless pics of me are and forever will still be out there, this feels like a positive step towards fixing my own thoughts!
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